wow... so i've definitely been away a LONG time. over a month even. i'm in college now and since my computer is not compatible with their systems I have to rely on my friends to get online and actually do stuff. so, yeah. that' s mostly why i haven't updated recently.

well, i know i may have mentioned this guy named mike in a previous entry, or i may not have mentioned him at all. i dunno. in any case we were going out, but with college in between everything.... i think having a boyfriend who isn't on campus would be a bad thing. so... yeah. which of course brings up conflict with this other boy i've met. actually i've known him two months already but i've begun to really like him. and it makes me sad because for as much as i do like him i'm not sure if we could really get together. he's still in high school (but a senior! i'd feel like a pedophile if he were any younger) and he lives in louisa which from campus and from my own home is still a long ways a way. it makes me sad, because... i really do like him. although i feel a little bad for being flighty when it comes to boys. i think i'm developing a bad habit. but i've decided to promise myself that if i try to make this one work, then i'm NOT backing out of it. at all. because i couldn't face myself if i did that again.

oh, and i know i did just meet this boy after i broke up with my ex, but i will NEVER cheat on anyone that i'm with. that is a despicable, disgusting and altogether horrid thing to do. i know all too well what it does to people and i will never put someone through that.

in any case, college is all right. minus all that frakkin walking up and down campus. other than that i'm good with it. i like my french and psychology classes most right now. the former because i'm learning it rather well, and the latter because i have it with my friend Cookie. i do need to write a paper now and do some research for a paper in psychology. i'm doing it on the disorder my dad has, panic disorder. although he's not nearly as bad now, he used to be so bad that he could barely leave the house. but he's better now and everything.

well, i think that's everything. i'm going to spiffle off now and try to do some other things. *bows out*

i swear...
lucky people, ::looks and sees megumi hayashibara, goes on about how she rox:: all you ppl being taken and spoken for and finding friends of sorts...
» ikimashokie on 2004-01-21 11:57:39

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